My Womb Healing Story
I feel it is time to share with the world my personal Womb Healing story as I am ready to offer a ritual I was granted from a Shaman in the Amazon. This Womb Healing ritual is for women that have experienced pregnancy loss or an abortion.
From a young age I knew I did not want children. In my twenties I conceived. It was a difficult decision, as I was so very much in love with my partner. I made the decision to have an abortion. I felt at the time this decision was more about not being ready to be a parent. It was a difficult time in my life. I was full of fear and chose to self-medicate with alcohol. This eventually pushed me to begin therapy several months later. My thoughts constantly lingering around the idea that I did something wrong. With the support of therapy, I began to heal.
Now some 35+ years later, I have worked on many parts of myself. So much grief I have carried within myself. I feel I carried not only my grief but my mom’s, and her mom’s grief. It seemed at times that I cried every day. I found journaling to be a tool I could use to release this grief story along with additional supportive therapies.
During this process of healing I felt it was time for me to understand my feelings on a deeper level. I then allowed the next part of my healing to take place. Often, I had thought of how old this child would be if I had made a different choice. I would talk to the baby spirit feeling it was a boy and apologize.
ln October 2000, I went to Thailand to learn from the Healers and medicine people of Thailand. When working with one of the healers, he shared that I had a baby spirit with me and asked if I had an abortion. “Yes, I did.” He offered me a series of rituals to perform myself for this baby spirit. I performed the rituals and the next day at Wat Po I went for a massage. During the massage I heard what I felt was a baby. In the full awareness of the baby spirit’s presence, I began to cry. I cried and cried to a depth I had not prior. In this moment I asked for the release of this baby spirit. After the massage, I asked the person who was with me at the time if they also heard the baby’s sounds. They said they only heard a cat.
Years later while in Peru I completed what is called a Dieta. This Dieta lasted ten days in complete isolation in the Amazon Jungle. While on my journey out of Dieta, I was offered a Womb Healing ritual. The Peruvian Shaman shared with me that he was working with a woman who had cancer. Through her shamanic sessions, she saw that the cancer was related to an abortion she had several years prior to the onset of her dis-ease. This is when the Shaman received the vision that a ritual was to be created around freeing this woman and other women from the suffering, pain, and shame that is held within the womb. He then granted me permission to offer this Womb Healing ritual to other women.
I have received many gifts from this Womb Healing ritual. Through my own years of self-healing and support, I have released any residue shame relating to my choice to abort. I feel the baby spirit has been set free. I myself feel freed. My personal journey with Womb Healing and my many years of experience as a healer allows me to create a safe and fully supported environment for women to release their own grief, sorrow, pain and suffering that is unknowingly held within the womb.
I know suffering on a very intimate level, and I have experienced the other side of suffering. The feeling of great joy and peace within my heart that is now fully present after the healing of my womb. It is with the deepest gratitude and honor that I am now ready to perform this Womb Healing ritual for other women.
~Elena
From a young age I knew I did not want children. In my twenties I conceived. It was a difficult decision, as I was so very much in love with my partner. I made the decision to have an abortion. I felt at the time this decision was more about not being ready to be a parent. It was a difficult time in my life. I was full of fear and chose to self-medicate with alcohol. This eventually pushed me to begin therapy several months later. My thoughts constantly lingering around the idea that I did something wrong. With the support of therapy, I began to heal.
Now some 35+ years later, I have worked on many parts of myself. So much grief I have carried within myself. I feel I carried not only my grief but my mom’s, and her mom’s grief. It seemed at times that I cried every day. I found journaling to be a tool I could use to release this grief story along with additional supportive therapies.
During this process of healing I felt it was time for me to understand my feelings on a deeper level. I then allowed the next part of my healing to take place. Often, I had thought of how old this child would be if I had made a different choice. I would talk to the baby spirit feeling it was a boy and apologize.
ln October 2000, I went to Thailand to learn from the Healers and medicine people of Thailand. When working with one of the healers, he shared that I had a baby spirit with me and asked if I had an abortion. “Yes, I did.” He offered me a series of rituals to perform myself for this baby spirit. I performed the rituals and the next day at Wat Po I went for a massage. During the massage I heard what I felt was a baby. In the full awareness of the baby spirit’s presence, I began to cry. I cried and cried to a depth I had not prior. In this moment I asked for the release of this baby spirit. After the massage, I asked the person who was with me at the time if they also heard the baby’s sounds. They said they only heard a cat.
Years later while in Peru I completed what is called a Dieta. This Dieta lasted ten days in complete isolation in the Amazon Jungle. While on my journey out of Dieta, I was offered a Womb Healing ritual. The Peruvian Shaman shared with me that he was working with a woman who had cancer. Through her shamanic sessions, she saw that the cancer was related to an abortion she had several years prior to the onset of her dis-ease. This is when the Shaman received the vision that a ritual was to be created around freeing this woman and other women from the suffering, pain, and shame that is held within the womb. He then granted me permission to offer this Womb Healing ritual to other women.
I have received many gifts from this Womb Healing ritual. Through my own years of self-healing and support, I have released any residue shame relating to my choice to abort. I feel the baby spirit has been set free. I myself feel freed. My personal journey with Womb Healing and my many years of experience as a healer allows me to create a safe and fully supported environment for women to release their own grief, sorrow, pain and suffering that is unknowingly held within the womb.
I know suffering on a very intimate level, and I have experienced the other side of suffering. The feeling of great joy and peace within my heart that is now fully present after the healing of my womb. It is with the deepest gratitude and honor that I am now ready to perform this Womb Healing ritual for other women.
~Elena